It started as an innocent test of my new coloured pencils and a gift for a friend…and then it got…out of hand…
Dammit Hiddles.
The Tea Room
DC, Sherlock, art, food, fanfiction, photography and miscellaneous.-
Occassionally NSFW
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A study in People
- How do you currently identify?: Human, person, neither gender, just me. Some might say genderqueer/genderfluid or agender/gender-neutral.
- Where are you from?: UK England
- Is your gender identiy generally accepted in your country?: If people notice that I am somehow different, some don't say, some give me wierd looks, most don't notice generally. The younger more ignorant lot will shout abuse.
- When did you first become aware of your identity?: From an early age but really began to notice around early high school age 12/13 I think. Learned about the different genders and identities properly around age 17/18.
- What is your sexuality?: I don't have one but if I did it would be pansexual.
- Has your sexuality or gender identity been an issue in your family, do they know?: My sister and mum know that I don't pick people based on gender or sex. I have mentoned the word pansexual to both but I don't know if they remember. They probably think I'm bisexual. Mum chooses not to notice. My dad doesn't know, he's not accepting, if he really knew me he'd probably have a nervous breakdown and both of us would end up back in therapy.
- Do your friends know?: Most know.
- Does/do your lover(s)/partner(s)/significant other, if you have one, know? Would you like them to or will they ever?: Sadly no, I'd like to tell him at some point, not sure how to open such a huuuuuuge can of worms though, he's probably got the same level of gender education of the avergae cis person, which is to say, not much. I'll make a proper night of it sometime. I don't think he would judge me, it wouldn't affect our relationship much at all, maybe just that I could wear mens underwear around him!
- Have you ever been bullied for your identity or sexuality?: Yep, all the time, since I was young. Regular abuse in and out of school. 'Are you a boy or a girl?' was the most asked question of my teenage years.
- Has somebody in the public workforce discriminated you becuase of social constructs and gender roles you refused to fit into?: Yes. I still regret not reporting it to the manager because it really was rude, unproffessional, sexist and gross. It was at a public swimming pool and I wanted to wear swimming shorts and a bikini top instead of the traditional bikini or one piece. I was insecure about my body and I prefer board shorts. The lifeguard wouldn't allow me into the pool wearing them. They are swimming shorts, made for swimming, perfectly accepted by pools. She was wearing shorts herself as part of the lifeguard uniform. I pointed to the many boys around me wearing the exact same shorts and said: 'They are wearing them though.' And she replied. 'They are boys.' She was doing her best to ignore me. I pressed on, saying, 'That is sexist!' She shrugged and walked away from me. Basically I had to take off the shorts or leave the swimming pool. It was disgusting. I want to go back and see if she's stil lthere and does it again becuase if she does I'm reporting it this time.
- Have you been refused entry somewhere due to your identity or sexuality?: The swimming pool.
- Have you always felt the way you do now?: It has changed. I felt like a girl. Then a girl who liked to wear boys clothing. Then I felt like a boy. Then I felt like half and half. I've identified as many things so no, I haven't always felt like I do now.
- What do you like about your sexuality, identity and body?: I like that my sexuality is accepting of everybody. I love for the soul not for the body. I am attracted to many different types of bodies and that makes life interesting. I like that my identity is free now, it has taken me a long time to fully accept that I don't have to be one or the other or anything at all. I like my body now, there has been times when I didn't.
- Are you happy with your identiy and sexuality or do they cause you dysphoria/depression?: I used to be happy, then I was unhappy for a number of years until very recently and I'm sure the periods of depression will return and dissapear in future. I'm happy now though.
- Are you happy with the way your body represents you? Would you change it?: I am happy mostly. It wouldn't bother me too much if I could get my breasts removed though, I like having a flat chest. Though I'd like to feed children in the future and breast removal is very expensive so I don't think I could remove them.
- Do you/have you tried to change your bodies appearance to match your mental gender?: I have binded and packed before but I don't much now. My chest is very flat and I can get away with not binding when wearing mens clothing. I don't feel the need to much but sometimes I don't like the way my boobs look in clothing so I'll bind occassionaly. I don't like to constrict my chest though. I don't feel my looks have to follow others ideals of male or female anyway mostly so I don't do much to alter it thesedays. I just do what I like so it looks how I like.
- Does your clothing choices say anything about your gender? e.g. typically feminine clothing if you are a girl: Nope not really. Sometimes I dress in women's clothing and feel like I'm in drag, despite having XX chromosomes. Soemtimes i dress that way and feel like a girl. I wear men's clothing and feel like a woman, sometimes a man. I wear a mix of both and feel like one, the other, both, neither...
- What pronouns do you use? Does everybody use them for you? Have you changed your name?: I wen't through a phase of hating hearing 'she' or 'her' and tried to encourage people to use 'he' and 'his'. When I went to university I picked a gender neutral name of 'Kae' (short for Kaeden, typically a male name), instead of 'Kat' short for 'Katherine'. I mostly get called Kae, sometimes Kat. When I talk about msyelf I sometimes say 'she' but mostly 'he'. It's just whichever comes to my head first really. I don't mind as much as I used to but I still prefer 'he' pronouns, it just suits me better. People don't really remember to use them much though I get called 'she' by everybody mostly. Sometimes it bothers me but I can't do much becuase I'm two genders and it's difficult trying to remind people to not favour one or the other, it's a hard balance to strike. I don't like the sound of neutral pronouns.
- Do people try to police your gender? What do you do that people think is wrong?: Various people have told me I can't wear boys clothes becuase I'm a woman. Cant teach them guitar becuase I'm a woman. Have to shave becuase I'm a woman. Cant skate becuase I'm a woman. Cant do a lot of things becuase I'm a woman really. Quite upsetting. I'm not even a woman and it shouldn't matter if I was.
- How do you think gender and sexuality can be better educated and learned about so people have a wider understanding of others in the future?: It needs to be a bigger subject in schools. There needs to stop being boys sections and girls sections and more just toys sections or clothes sections or hairstyles or magazines. It needs to be taught from a young age that its not just boys and girls, it's not just XX and XY becuase most people don't know that you can get other sexes outside of male and female and don't know about the huge wealth of genders and sexualities out there and it leads to people feeling alone and being bullied out of ignorance. It needs to be taught that the current social constructs are wrong and you can wear what clothes you like, have what job you like, play with what toys you like, love who you like, like the colours you liek and have the haircut you like despite your gender.
A study in People
- Made for my own purposes really becuase I couldn't find one similar. Just some questions/experiences of peoples gender identities or troubles they have had with their own. Or good things! How people came to know who they were and if they were accepted and by whom. Feel free to add questions to this and answer them!
- How do you currently identify?:
- Where are you from?:
- Is your gender identiy generally accepted in your country?:
- When did you first become aware of your identity?:
- What is your sexuality?:
- Has your sexuality or gender identity been an issue in your family, do they know?:
- Do your friends know?:
- Does/do your lover(s)/partner(s)/significant other, if you have one, know? Would you like them to or will they ever?:
- Have you ever been bullied for your identity or sexuality?:
- Has somebody in the public workforce discriminated you becuase of social constructs and gender roles you refused to fit into?:
- Have you been refused entry somewhere due to your identity or sexuality?:
- Have you always felt the way you do now?:
- What do you like about your sexuality, identity and body?:
- Are you happy with your identiy and sexuality or do they cause you dysphoria/depression?:
- Are you happy with the way your body represents you?:
- Does your clothing choices say anything about your gender? e.g. typically feminine clothing if you are a girl:
- Do you/have you tried to change your bodies appearance to match your mental gender?:
- What pronouns do you use? Does everybody use them for you? Have you changed your name?:
- Do people try to police your gender? What do you do that people think is wrong?:
- How do you think gender and sexuality can be better educated and learned about so people have a wider understanding of others in the future?:
There’s Nothing Wrong With Me.
White Pencil on black card, couple of hours work whilst watching Hounds.
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1. Natasha Romanov | Black Widow
Every Sherlock adaptation in a nutshell
Fast forward to 1:27! (That dog in the beginning has the largest goddamn eyes)
I’m not going to translate the intro (1:00 to 1:27) to it cause I have shit to study but I’ll try my best with the rest.
Captain:Come on, charge him on everything we’ve got. All this is real obvious.
Russian!Holmes: I wouldn’t say that, Captain!
Captain: You again…. Goddammit, why is this always during my shift!
Russian!Holmes: Elementary, Captain. It’s as elementary as the fact that you just came back from Tula yesterday.
Captain: But how!?
Russian!Holmes: Elementary! You have crumbs on your shoes. That means you didn’t eat neatly, which means you were in a hurry so you wouldn’t have to share with your partner. The breakout on your face tells me that it was something sweet. And the chipped tooth, that it was a pryanik (sweet baked good cookie thing)! And where here do we make bullet-proof pryaniks?
Captain: BUT HOW??
Watson: Bravo, Holmes, bravo!
Captain: But how could I have come back yesterday from Tula if I’m already working here, in Moscow, two days?
Russian!Holmes: Uh, well, let’s continue, Watson.
Watson: Are these the things of the victim?
Captain: Yes. Actually, all the things of the victim.
Russian!Holmes: I see that the victim didn’t like shopping… Hmmm, turning on deduction….. It’s April. But the Christmas tree hasn’t been put away yet, which means our victim had an influence over his wife.
Watson: (standing uncomfortably close) But how did he die? He’s dead, isn’t he?
Captain: Don’t go to a fortune teller. :/
Russian!Holmes: He died…. From a cut by a poisoned bottle opener! Although wait a minute. There are pantyhose on the wall and in them - onions!
Watson: Yes…. But who could wear such a thing?
Russian!Holmes: Elementary, Watson! The killer is Lady Gaga!
(enter BBC!Holmes)
BBC!Holmes: It is wonderful, gentlemen. It is wonderful that Arthur Conan Doyle hasn’t lived to see this great moment.
Captain: And who are you, strutting around in the coat? Also Holmes??
BBC!Holmes: What do you mean, also? For many I am the only because only I have a blog and LJ. And, don’t worry, I won’t tell anyone you went to a strip club yesterday.
Captain: But-
BBC!Holmes: Where else would you go in Tula?
Captain: But how did you-
BBC!Holmes: Not a word further! I need to take a look at everything with my special subtitled gaze….
(Vodka: Always Friday!)
(Cigarettes: Only when he drinks.)
(Captain: Radius ( I guess) 7.4 cm, 4 years in Moscow, Didn’t spit far enough, Blood of a witness, Case closed.)
Captain: What are you doing! I need to give it back. (rented)
BBC!Sherlock: Considering you’re dusting yourself of something invisible, you’ll need to give it back, quite soon. So what do we have here, John? Plot against the queen?
Watson: No, Sherlock, all the clues point to-
BBC!Sherlock: I am not all! (translating punsss….) I am the lightest colored (brightest) head. I am detective number only in the world! Of course, if Channel One is translating me right. :/ What did you say the internet says about this, John?
Watson: I.. didn’t say anything.
BBC!Sherlock: If you didn’t say, the book about us would be twice as short and four times smarter.
Captain: Guys, I don’t get it. Are you going to investigate the murder or not!?
EXPLOSION
Ritchie!Holmes: Whyyy do you need to investigate if you can just overwhelm everyone with SFX? Well, what do we have here? Now I’ll show you how the best detectives of Hollywood work! You have to be contemporary… Brutal… And commercial…!
Russian!Holmes: T-Those are (I don’t actually know what he says there)
Watson: D-Don’t worry, it’s just a rash…
Ritchie!Holmes: What’s wrong, are you shocked by my deductions? If, of course, I correctly understand the word… You, sirs, have gotten old. The contemporary laws of film say that if you didn’t take off your pants, you didn’t get any in the box office!
BBC!Sherlock: Gentlemen, don’t take offence, but you’ve all gotten old. Today, if you’re not on the internet…
Russian!Holmes: What does the internet have to do with anything? Haven’t you /read/ Conan Doyle? In the nineteenth century, only the mentally insane had blogs.
Captain: Heh, well, nothing’s really changed then.
Russian!Holmes: And the Queen, named /me/ the best Holmes on the planet.
Ritchie!Holmes: She named Elton John a knight…
BBC!Holmes: (getting in close again) John, you’re a doctor! You have the talent of telling people the truth with an understanding expression on your face. Tell us, who is the most ingenious? Who will be the one to remain in history?
Watson: Gentlemen, how about all three of you remain in history, seeing as, as a doctor, I can’t live on just one salary.
Captain: Well, anyway, excuse me for interrupting but maybe you’ll finally tell me what happened here?
Russian!Holmes: He was stabbed to death by Moriarty.
BBC!Holmes: Not stabbed… but poisoned!
Ritchie!Holmes: Don’t make me laugh, Moriarty always chokes his victims!
Russian!Holmes: No, you don’t make me laugh, and if you actually want to be funny then take off your pants again!
Victim: AHEM, sorry, am I interrupting? Look, a hole in my side. Right there, fingerprints on the knife! Here, a note from his neighbor: I killed him because of political disagreements on the views about his wife. Here’s the date, here’s the signature, here’s a copy of his passport, here’s everythi-
Russian!Holmes: Can’t trust you with anything!
Watson: But, why, Holmes…!
Russian!Holmes: Elementary, Watson!
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